Always Look on the Bright Side of Life

I am at home with a touch of the flu. I really hate being sick – I can do nothing but sleep and think. It is almost like God’s way of forcing me to slow down and process everything that has been happening in my life.

After Noah broke up with me, it took me awhile, but I was starting to be fine. He and I work in the same building, so we’d see each other, but it was okay.

I was “Julia” again. I liked who I was. I had a job; needed no one.

Then another man that I had feelings for in the past came back into my life. Well, I helped him back into my life. I found out that he was around, and I contacted him. Things took off from there. I don’t know how to explain it. This guy brings out the absolute best in me. He doesn’t mind my quirks, so much… and he has the perfect dynamic energy about him that gets me every time.

I became “Julia,” amplified. Haven’t been that happy in a long time.

AGH! I don’t know how to explain what I am feeling at the moment! I also really don’t know how this happened; but, Noah came back into my romantic life. He wanted to date me. The other guy didn’t want to date me… though we were dating. So, I figured I could “date” them both. Casual. Nice nice.

Not so much.

One guy made me choose. The other guy made it known that he was not happy. So I chose neither of them.

Then a THIRD ex of mine calls me up. Wants to talk.

And meanwhile guy number two has fallen out of existence.

Where does this leave me?

What is love?